My relationship is killing me
Im in a relationship with a toxic and controlling, unthreaded borderliner.
She thinks she’s threaded because she’s been to therapy once (because of paranoia and not bpd) and now believes every bad habit she has is okay. She love bombed me until I stopped going to work because I wanted to be with her. I lost my job soon after and then everything went downhill. Now In not allowed to go out alone anymore, not allowed to have any female contact without her being involved - even long time female friends. She is extremely insecure and blames me fore everything. I’m a bad boyfriend, everything I do hurts her, I’m not enough. I can’t even find the right words because it been like this for 4 years now. At this point I lost any will to live and I’m constantly think about giving up. Besides her toxic bpd bullshit she’s actually everything I ever wanted and I believe that true love need hard work and now I’m trapped in a relationship that’s about to kill me but I fear to give because I fear i will feel like a loser afterwards for not trying harder. I can’t take it anymore, please help me. How do I open her eyes that it’s her insecurity’s and lack of emotional selfcontrol that is hurting her and killing the relationship and not me.