Feels like society actively fights against traumatized folks interests
I would consider myself fairly highly functional as far as traumatized folks go, and I have been extraordinarily lucky in making decent friends throughout my life, even if I have been a bit of a late bloomer.
I can't help but feel like society at large, especially within the US, conditions people to just not give a shit at all about their neighbors, or about people in pain. It feels like everyone is just for themselves, that everyone is an island. There is no sense of community, no desire for mutual understanding, and it feels like giving people the benefit of the doubt is just non-existent. I find it kind of insufferable even just being around some family members who will always find something or someone to complain about while driving, walking in a busy area, or just being out and about.
There's always someone to blame, always some bad-willed person who thrives on ruining your day by stepping in your way or walking slower than you would like. But like, it feels like nobody ever considers that people make fucking mistakes or don't act exactly how you would expect them to because we all have different pasts and lessons we've learned from life. It feels like good-will is just completely gone. Hearing some people talk so terrible about their neighbors, about other human beings, just makes me feel even more alone and isolated. It makes me feel like connection is an accident, and that really the world is out to crush you whenever it gets the chance. It feels like people would gladly step on others and accumulate shit just so they can hide away in a house and be anti-social and no longer "bothered" by the presence of other human beings.
This is a big ramble, I guess I just miss having a community, and feeling like there were always others who would/could help if you were in need. I miss having people who a gave a shit about me in my life.