I’m in university now so this was a few years ago but i’m still hung up on it and haven’t put a true label on it yet. I haven’t really worked it out with my therapist either because it is so hard to put it into words and understand what it was.
When i was in high school i dated this guy i had been friends with since childhood. Sometimes he would come over to hang out and try to have sex with me and i said no because i didn’t want to/ didn’t feel good but regardless i said no. He would then get upset and would be inconsolable until i had sex with him. At that point, id have initiated because i wanted to cheer him up but at no point during it was i enthusiastic and happy. This happened many many times, id end up having sex with him out of pity or guilt.
Was this assault? I’m wondering because technically i initiated it after. I guess it counts as coercion? I’m not sure, please let me know.