I don’t wanna end up like my father.
i am legal enough to talk about this ,so yeah.
Growing up, i have realised i have felt things about my father which have started to made me hate him. there are many things about my dad which i don’t wanna emulate.
talking about it, the most important of it is that i have started to experience similar traits in myself, which i genuinely don’t wanna end up being.
for example, (there are many’s other things but this is one of it)my dad has had a long time habit of lecturing the shit out, he doesn’t care who it is,let it be anyone older or younger, he just lectures the shit out. (mostly about how should i deal with things and how wrong i have fucked up and how he was and is right about things ). I know this may not sound toxic but genuinely it is. i have been over this a thousand times. Growing up, i found it very very difficult dealing with it
(9 out of 10 times, it ended up rage baiting me and giving me anger issues, although i have solved my anger issues pretty much).
few months ago, i found myself lecturing the shit out to my mother( i wasn’t shouting but yeah),and most of it was a random topic. I don’t even know much about it but still ended up saying shit. It is very hard to not end up saying something similar to what he says.
I try to keep myself calm and not judge anything quickly like my father does but i always end up doing shit i regret afterwards which ruins my day. Most of my days end up feeling guilty and what would happen i end up growing exactly like him. I always think about ways to go away from these things and let it be myself but genuinely cant help myself.
idk i feel like i’m always noticing the bad things which affect my life and how i don’t end up solving it. (feels like i’m stuck in a rut)
bruh, idk what this sounds like but yeah .it is not a joke but it’s not that deep too.
guys help me out or give me some genuine advice.