u/ElectricalCollege361

I (F21) have ADHD, depression, anxiety and unprocessed grief after losing my dad unexpectedly in 2023. I want to acknowledge that living with someone who deals with all of this is tough, I get that. But I don't think it excuses what happened. I study Acting at university. I'd been ill and went to hospital twice in a week, missing a lot of rehearsal. I'm the only person in my class with a job, 4 days uni, 3 days work, no days off — and I was still arranging extra practice sessions that my scene partner was always too "busy" or tired to attend. The night before my assessment I got bad news, spiraled, got a terrible headache, napped and missed a scheduled FaceTime rehearsal with my scene partner (I feel awful totally my fault). So I asked my two flatmates A and B to help me run lines for 30 minutes. They were watching TV and gave each other an "ugh" look and A said "it'll make me feel guilty about not doing my own uni work so I'd rather not." B then accused me of guilt tripping and blaming them for my mistakes when I said in frustration that I was going to fail if I don't learn some of the lines I was struggling with. Here's the thing, both of them admitted they KNOW I would have dropped everything to help them if they were in my shoes. I've been helping B job hunt and networking for her on top of everything I have going on. And I'm doing it because I genuinely want to help her. They also both said if they helped me it would be because they "felt like they needed to" and "it wouldn't be genuine" wtf? We all raised our voices, I cried, had a complete crash out and didn't make it in for my assessment the next day because I was so anxious about the lines. Idk should I feel bad for asking for their help? Non of us have apologised and now it's awkward. Should I apologise/ AITA?