I didn't even tell my friends about this. I don't even know what to do w my life rn. This is just me venting so maybe I can feel a little lighter.
We still love each other, and share a house. She will move out in 2 months but till that time she's gonna stay with me. We still cuddle and do a lot of things together so it doesn't really feels like she will be gone in 2 months. That really makes hard for me to accept this breakup. She has valid reasons for dumping me so I can't be mad at her either. (Dw it's not something like cheating we just can't get over some problems and it's affecting both of us really bad)
The real problem for me, I planned my whole future according to her and now I'm somewhere I never want to be. I even had fights w my family for her. But now I'm 22 and I don't know what I'm gonna do w my life. I'm in a college I don't want, a degree I don't understand. I also lost some friends in this road.
Basically I have no idea how to get over this breakup. We did everything together. Movies tv series songs games... Everything reminds me of her. Even though she's right beside me rn it hurts really bad. Can't sleep can't eat, didn't even go to my class for 2 weeks. Probably failed some of them too because of that. I'm a mess rn.
How Im supposed to move on from this? All I can do this cry all day. I feel like I could never be happy like I was w her.