u/Eishin-Flash

Well, I'm taking a break from Eishin for around a Month or so.

I realized that my Spark for RPing as her has burnt out a bit.

Maybe from being my only character for a while maybe not.

A lot of shit also happened privately on my end which sent my head into a Spiral again and made me question myself a lot

Don't worry about me though, not gonna do anything stupid I think.

So yeah, short break on this character and see you again soon.

Well, it's another one of those...

I don't know how to start this so sorry if it's shitty.

My Start into this Community was a quick but bumpy one.

Many people here know me as Eishin Flash, but maybe some remember my RP account before that as Matikanetannhauser1 or Mambo for short.

It started with a random thought on a workday when I randomly made the account and made a post in Umaddit back then.

Over time I made a lot of friends like Zero or Mark.

Then the big Migration happened and the persona I made started to crumble.

Not much and not noticeable but it hurt.

I had a lot of fun back then and made a lot of good memories that I still think about often but like everything in life it sadly ended.

Maybe it ended when Matikanetannhauser died or before that I honestly don't know.

After that I started my Account as Eishin Flash.

I thought a new account and a new persona could help me heal and get better again.

But it sadly never did.

I made a lot of new friends and keep contact with old ones from my Mambo days.

I still have a lot of fun with everyone here and wouldn't want to change it for anything in life but in the back of my mind there is a space that is getting bigger and bigger.

The members of my Team have seen the most of it by randomly stopping to respond for multiple days to completely leaving and cutting contact.

And now I have arrived at a point where I think I just completely gave up.

What's another Decimal in a Big Number ?

The world keeps spinning and time keeps moving.

Nothing stops because someone disappears or dies.

It's just the way the world goes and will always go.

I'm a little nobody in a Server like this.

My Problems don't matter and are like a little grain of sand in this big Universe we life in so why do I even try anymore.

But that's it from my little vomiting session here.

Love y'all and hope you have a Great day whenever you may read this.

Eishin Flash or Machitan out and goodnight