u/Efficient-Panda2550

We had 3 dogs and got a new puppy roughly 2 months ago, named Precious. Precious had a sudden and quick choking incident and died while eating his breakfast on 4/30. We tried sweeping his mouth, smacking his back and tried the hemlich. We tried to get help from a nursing home and fire station both across the street. They were no help. Then we drove like crazy to get to the Pet Er, which was 13 minutes away. They scoped him and pulled out the piece of food eventhough he was clearly gone, we still held out hope until the pet er declared him gone. The house is so quiet now without a puppy. My husband, me and my 2 teens are animal lovers and it has been such a terrible grief for my family. It was horrible, tragic and he was so loved. Everytime I close my eyes I see his tiny little body and feel like I can't go on. I know I will continue to go on and be there for my family, the loss is so sharp. I randomly break down crying. It's only been 2 days but it was so sudden and horrific. When will I stop seeing his dead body everytime I close my eyes? Everything feels like a trigger that reminds me.