Throw away account for obvious reasons.
We won't say what it was but a persecutor fronted and did something illegal. A really really bad thing. Not even debatable.
We don't know why they did it, how they did it, or anything. We had no awareness of what was happening when they did it. Now we are panicking. We can't sleep, we are having near constant panic attacks. We are considering offing ourselves so it can't be done again. It's disgusting. We don't want to suffer the consequences of their actions. If any of us were aware while they were fronting we would've immediately shut it down and left our house to avoid them from even trying it. We hate them. We do not want them in our system and we especially do not want to suffer all because of them. They are trying so hard to give us a reason to kill ourselves. we don't want to do that. We want to live. They are the only one that doesn't so they do everything they can to make us change our mind.
I don't know what to do. I keep having panic attacks. I'm paranoid that we could get arrested. I can't sleep, I'm over eating. I don't want to die but I don't want to live with them. Please help us. I don't want to suffer because of them. They're just a self hating fragment they didn't even want to do what they did they just wanted to hurt us.