want to start, but i’m afraid.
hi everyone! all your videos are so incredibly artistic and beautiful, i’m so grateful i was able to see so many amazing people being so talented here.
i’m 20, and i’ve been wanting to start polesport classes of some kind since i was 16. i have a loooonggg history of dance/gymnastics, but i quit when i was 15 and haven’t done anything similar since.
even when i was dancing, i had absolutely NO arm strength 😭 while i’m very flexible still, i have nothing going for me in the muscle department.
i am honestly so soft and weak right now, and while i’m not overweight i’m definitely on the higher end of the spectrum (which is fine!! love yourself the way you are and all that.)
i guess some things that have been holding me back are
- fear of not being strong enough
- fear of making a fool of myself and looking like an idiot when i can’t even hold onto the pole or something
- fear of being too big or heavy to hold myself up/ feel confident enough to wear the tiny clothes you have to wear to participate. while i know size shouldn’t hold you back, i feel like i only ever see girls smaller than me, and that can be discouraging.
i guess it would give me a lot of comfort if i could hear maybe some anecdotes of people who started out in a similar position to me.
i’d love to do it. it looks so beautiful and i have been craving so badly to do something artistic with my body and be able to move it again like i used to (ballet and lyrical were my forte, and i was dancing competitively/ winning interstate comps… to now, where i do nothing with my body and i can’t make it do pretty things anymore 😕). it’s between this and aerial sports, but this is what’s really been pulling my interest the last 4 years.
i hope this isn’t too annoying- i hope i can get some advice? words of comfort? i’d appreciate it more than you could ever know.
thank you :)
-charlie 🩷