u/Effective_Court6677

Daily battle. I have to force myself to go in stores. I forced myself to do 2 instacart deliveries today. The other day I went up 3 flights of stairs and had massive panic attack because my heart rate went up to 170 + instantly.

I'm constantly taking my blood pressure but trying to stop. Sometimes when anxious I feel like it will be 200. But usually it's not that extreme (though it's been 200 at the fire station before.) and 180 twice

Also my blood pressure can go from 140/160 over 100 + to 120s over 80s in one min of breathing

My nervous system is extremely on edge everyday. I can't afford a cardiologist to find out if my stair heartrate is pots or something. But I need to go.

(I had a friend with severe anxiety whom couldnt go up stairs either. She even moved to a first floor apartment)

She went to the cardiologist and he told her (after a holter monitor) that her nervous system was sensitized and it was all anxiety. . So I'm hoping it's the same with me

Long story short I'm just fighting this everyday.Im 35 years old male 2 kids that don't live with me. I live with my father and his gf. I am struggling everyday just to make ends meet. Bills are piling up in the thousands (child support, insurance,dental debt etc)

I feel so overwhelmed. I take Ativan but I'm forced to taper within one or 2 months max due to no insurance Ive been on SSRI before but don't want to go back

Anybody else out there fighting just to have a normal day ? When will this end ?

I pray it doesn't last much longer for me and anyone reading this. This got bad last year in June. Before that I was working 6 days a week. Making decent money. All my bills were paid. I had like a giant brick of dollar bills lol (I know that doesn't sound like much to some of you, but life's been brutal and I was never able to save money before)

Now I'm struggling just to force myself to make like 40 dollars a day.

I went up 3 flight of stairs earlier and with groceries (instacart) and my heart rate went to 170 +

I left the groceries at the top and made my way down having a full blown panic attack. I called an ambulance to check me out and someone in the parking lot talked to me while I waited. It was embarrassing and terrifying at first.

Why do stairs triggers panic for me at times ? My heart rate is usually "ok" when shopping loading etc. I also had 3 EKGs and chest x-rays last year after these events and they showed nothing.

I don't have insurance rn and can't afford a cardiologist. (But these symptoms aren't everyday and I can't afford out of pocket for piece of mind)

Just wondering if anybody has had this happen to them ?

Worried about cauda equina syndrome due to the fact I have a more urgency to urinate over the last few weeks and now for the last two days tingling down my leg after standing. I've been dealing with severe sciatic pain for like 6 weeks at this point. No insurance and I'm in survival mode RN can't afford a "low cost" clinic either. Am I doomed ? I can't work . I can barely do instacart. I can barely walk through a store and it seems like it's just getting worse. And now the tingling ? I'm just feeling hopeless and anxiety was bad before I started having severe sciatic pain almost 2 months ago.