u/Effective_Cloud_5813

Yep, me again, the one who just got started on my meds and feels absolutely incredible to the point I voiced it to the entire community. I had something small happen, and it made me feel great in a more calm way. When I got home from school yesterday, I made myself a snack and though I would normally go to my room like every day, I decided to take a change of pace.

I just grabbed my tablet, my ELA homework (I finished it and felt ✨️amazing✨️), and went to sit outside on the grass against an oak tree in my yard and just... be. To just relax. Just me, my work, my food, and my music. After a while, I laid down in the grass with my jacket as a pillow and just stared up at the leaves and sky.

I turned my music off and just listened. Hearing the birds chirping and the wind making the tree leaves rustle around and seeing the blue sky with a clear head so I could actually take it all in was absolutely magical... I didn't realize how much I needed to feel that. To just be.

My mom ended up joining me a bit later, and it didn't even phase me. We just sat there and talked for a long time while taking in the beautiful sky and sounds that we both took for granted. Yeah, the noise in my head slowly started to come back, but I was so relaxed that it just backed off again and let me listen. I didn't realize how clear I would be able to hear things with a quiet mind...

This is already one of the best things that's ever happened to me.

So I started my meds (Adderall, for those who keep asking) yesterday even tho I was scared that it would alter my personality (like the dulling, numb, or "zombie like" side effect that some people experience), and WOW, I haven't felt like this in a LONG time. I willingly washed the dishes, willingly folded and put my clothes away, organized my dresser, and I finished the pages of a comic I'm writing. I actually TOOK CARE OF MYSELF THIS MORNING (I'm talking getting up early af while still feeling well rested, making a healthy breakfast instead of either eating sugar filled cereal or starving myself, brushing my teeth, ect.)

Is this how people without ADHD feel???vThey're just able to??? Do stuff??? And KEEP doing that stuff??? With a quiet brain??? And not feel sad all the time??? (Or maybe the meds are just making me happier cuz I'm feeling more... happily productive or smth? Idk) Man, idk why I was so nervous, hell, I actually feel even more like myself than I have in a long time.

It got me over here doing stuff and NOT feeling sad and annoyed. This is amazing! I feel proud of myself for once for getting stuff done :) I know I'm not superman and I know I feel like I'm supposedly invincible, but I'm gonna take care of myself, even when the high starts to wear off! I just love this feeling.

Edit: pls don't be condescending in the comments or anything, I'm just saying my meds are working and it's actually making me feel better and productive with a quiet brain and I wanted to talk about how happy it's making me. 😭

Edit 2: Guys. I've felt this way before I was on meds, but that was a looong time ago. I know my mood.

Hi, I'm Cody(M19), and I was diagnosed with ADHD not too long ago. It's gotten to the point where my mom has taken me to her psychiatrist to get a prescription for Adderall to help me focus. I've seen people talk about how ADHD meds mess with them and make them feel like they're boring or lose their sense of self, and I'm nervous that'll happen to me too.

I like being jumpy"(in the fun way, not the "scared our of your skin" way) and creative and passionate and silly, and now I'm scared that the meds will numb me up just to focus and end up taking away most of my personality. My aunt says it won't happen since it didn't happen to her, but I'm not her.

I'm a different person, I have a personality that isn't based around being a crazy cat lady and conspiracy theorist like her. And apparently I have to take it twice a day until they find the right dose, which could take MONTHS, which I'm scared will make me boring. Does anybody have any advice about this kind of thing?..

Note: Let it be known that I'm not saying that my personality is better than my aunts', hers is perfectly fine. Just a bit odd, even for me.