19F , I've caused my parents a lot of financial stress over the years , both mental and physical related issues.
A specific issue I'm dealing with right just to put in perspective, I went practically my whole life without brushing or flossing due to depression(and an episode of psychosis), and last year it finally caught up to me and my dad had to spend around 1k to get multiple crowns done and fillings. I'm grateful to even be privileged enough to get treatment, but I can tell he was really really upset at me, and he didn't even buy food or groceries for months after that.
Thankfully, it scared me into taking better care of my oral hygiene but even with not missing a single day of flossing and brushing since then, I feel and see a new cavity forming!!! It sounds really stupid, but I'm genuinely mortified to talk to him about it. I feel super guilty , I've been trying to gain the courage to text him about it because it's starting to hurt but I just feel like such a burden on him for even existing. I'm the only kid in this family that is always constantly going through some sort of mental or physical problem
We barely even have a normal relationship either, he's always been there for me financially but never emotionally. Which is still better than nothing I guess, I'm still grateful for that at least. But it just feels like a transactional relationship with a stranger I just happen to live in the same house with
Im tempted to just maybe rip the tooth out instead of going through the trouble of possibly having to do another root canal, I'm so embarrassed to even be alive