Did you ever leave a good woman who loved you because you didn't feel the same? If you did, were you happier being alone? Were you miserable without her even if you weren't happy with her? Did you regret your decision after being alone for a while?
I know i should just leave but i tried and couldn't because she wanted me to stay. Not like crying and begging, just respecfully letting me know she understands and is willing to continue anyways. It's the only relationship i've had so i never broke up with anyone either (i'm 30). I care about her and don't want to waste more of her time but when the moment of truth comes i chicken out and just start the "i don't wanna be alone" self pity.
Idk what advice i'm looking for exactly but i don't have friends so i guess i just wanted to vent somewhere.