u/Effective-Gene9391

I've been in EMDR for a year now, working mostly on multiple small t traumas, I'm also autistic and have ADHD. generally, I notice positive changes and I reached my main therapeutic goal (processing fear of physical violence), but my mood hasn't been great for the most part and my depression came back at some point. recently, I had a very uplifting moment where I felt I had agency over myself and my future, and my therapist asked if she could try and install a positive belief. the belief was about me feeling confident and secure in what I'm doing. during the process of installation, I didn't have any negative responses, but the weeks that followed that session have been brutal. my mood switched dramatically, to the point of strong SI and I had to go to the emergency room because I felt I was a danger to myself. I was prescribed meds, but I still feel very disturbed. my thoughts revolve around how I am doomed and my trauma is inescapable. it feels like something was stopping me from believing in myself or thinking positively about myself. do you think it's a normal part of EMDR and something that passes at some point? tbh I'm considering ending therapy, as I really struggle to feel secure in my own skin after this, but I'm curious of your thoughts.