My girlfriend is beautiful, I wish I was too
I have no idea how to manage my bdd especially when it makes me feel like I don’t deserve her. Why can’t I just be content, this mental illness is horrific, I can’t tell if I look okay or not it’s a nightmare every single day. Every day I get a ton of anxiety about seeing myself in the mirror. Then when I do I either think I look good or not, when I look good I feel like I must be delusional.
I met my gfs brother the other day and he was just laughing the entire time he talked to me, I’m trying to process it but I can’t it seems like the truth is that I look funny. So I don’t deserve her if her family can’t even respect me because of how I look.
Does anybody have a similar experience where they can help me?
I’m stuck in a loop with my bdd it constantly brings me into depressions and I’m so scared I won’t be able to improve my life for her. I feel like I want to do everything I can to improve mine and hers life but as of right now I am nothing because of how much this illness has sheltered me.