u/Educational_Room_743

and why is it such a blind side like all the signs weren't there from the jump and why must i continue to hold on to things that hurt and why is it always a mama's boy and why do I keep getting into relationships with them and why do they keep finding me or is that also not a unique experience? i'm feeling extremely jaded and as if everything in my relationship was some big act, going back and forth mentally replaying the good, the bad, the ugly and never being able to tell what a normal reaction to something looks like is exhausting. The realization that even when love is real (and that's if youre lucky), it can still not be enough is heartbreaking. my soul is tired and my heart is too, throwing myself a pity party of 1 for the night, but its an open invite. cheers