I want to get high so bad
Long story short: I stopped last march because I wanted to get back with my ex and she doesn’t tolerate it anymore. I was sober for about 2 weeks and then I travel to CA and just smoke 2 joints and got a few gummies. I managed to bring 2 gummies to my country since weed is illegal here and ate a few days back in April. Has been about 2-3 weeks since I have not consumed any cannabis and about 1 month without smoking.
I have found that I am not doing for my ex anymore but because I hate being smoking around all day long, even in my work I went to take hits. Weed here is illegal but I got a dealer who got the stuff from California and the high is very similar to the one I experienced when travel to the States. There’s also weed from Colombia but is less quality (and cheaper) nothing lab tested, just wild weed.
I noticed I don’t need weed to function after 9 years of chronic usage and I like being sober during day time since I am not need to be hidden from people to smoke. I really enjoy a good joint specially from weed from CA at my balcony looking at the city but then I remember I don’t want to become addicted again. I usually smoke when something really stressful happen or just to play video games or enjoy a movie. But this night I want to roll and smoke a joint so bad but I know I will be continue buying expensive weed. What should I do? Got a 3.5 and smoke and get sober again or just focus my attention in other stuff?