u/EducationalBudget758

Hi everyone. 23F. I had a C-section with two healthy 5 lbs twins almost 5 weeks ago. No NICU time, went home 2 days after. The same week we came home I started having horrible panic attacks and crying spells 24/7, so I got back on Prozac and they added in buspirone. Fast forward 4 weeks later they gave me Wellbutrin as well. When does it all get better? I feel so hopeless and sit and grieve my old life and body then feel horrible guilt for doing so. Both babies have colic and I feel so much anxiety being in the same room as them. We've had a ton of help, which has been great. So why am I still struggling so badly? It feels like I'm stuck like this forever and I'm a horrible mom for feeling better when I'm not around them. I'm scared I'll never feel connected with them or be able to take care of them. Does this ever go away? I feel like such a failure.

Hi everyone. 23F. I had a C-section with two healthy 5 lbs twins almost 5 weeks ago. No NICU time, went home 2 days after. The same week we came home I started having horrible panic attacks and crying spells 24/7, so I got back on Prozac and they added in buspirone. Fast forward 4 weeks later they gave me Wellbutrin as well. When does it all get better? I feel so hopeless and sit and grieve my old life and body then feel horrible guilt for doing so. Both babies have colic and I feel so much anxiety being in the same room as them. We've had a ton of help, which has been great. So why am I still struggling so badly? It feels like I'm stuck like this forever and I'm a horrible mom for feeling better when I'm not around them. I'm scared I'll never feel connected with them or be able to take care of them. Does this ever go away? I feel like such a failure.