This has been my longest ever streak. Was feeling good until some shit happened yesterday. I was getting the urges soooo bad but I controlled myself yesterday, but I couldn’t just now. It was humbling. And I know this was wrong. I know how bad porn is, how bad of an image it creates for sex, as I’ve experienced that firsthand.
As for this time, I consciously searched for sex related models in instagram and couldn’t hold myself back and got back to porn. Now, I’m not blaming women for dressing expressively and what-not, I’m not that type of guy. I’m a firm believer in feminism, and women should be able to wear and post anything they want so the blame is on me for lacking self control. And what I’ve learned is, women don’t actually want what we see in porn, that is not how a normal person behaves. They will seek a lot of attention and aftercare after having sex (or even only some sensual cuddling). Yes this sounds so wrong only to learn this so late in my life (I’m 21M).
This has been a very hard journey for me, and I hope to get completely over this one day. Seeing posts about 67 day streak, 93-days and more in this subreddit give me a lot of hope. And I’ve already tried most tricks in the book, though I’d love to hear more tips to quit completely. Never reached this stage before and I only plan to get better.