u/Ecstatic-Base-387

We started as a LDR and initially talked a lot on the phone. I was working full time and my job was not going great but due to the countries immigration restrictions I couldn’t go and see her or she couldn’t come see me. 5 months into our relationship and I left my job and country since I didn’t really like it and it was affecting my mental health because I was all by myself there. So I left and went back home to my parents which was still a little far from her. But after spending 20 days with them I flew to her for my engagement and spent 2-2.5 months. After that I flew back to my parents and lived there for 1.5 months and yes the calls dropped a little bit (video calls) but audio calls still existed. My parents were genuinely upset with me with how much time I spent on my phone with her but I kept calming them down. And the reason they were not happy was because I was not spending enough time with them and I was going to a different country in a few months to study again. My fiancée was also not happy since I was moving abroad again and seeing her would be tough so I flew back to her and spent 15 days with her before finally flying to a completely different country to begin my studies and find my job since I was a 26 yr unemployed guy sitting at home. Things got real shitty as soon as I landed. My course is so intense that I don’t even get time to rest as the course is in skilled trade. But still I made an effort and tried talking to her on the way to my college and for a couple of hours on the weekends. For me video and audio calls hold the same emotion and I agree I was making more audio calls then video. But she seems so unhappy with this fact and she’s also unhappy with the distance. I promised her that it would take me a year to find a new job and then I would bring her to this new country which has immigrant friendly policies but we keep butting heads. I need genuine help. I’m emotionally completely dead. And it’s not like I’m not interested in her or don’t love her I’m just emotionally dead so I don’t know how to share the emotions with her. She just keeps feeling I’m not interested in her anymore but I never let that fact show even when we’re talking on audio calls. Please help me?