That's really it.
Former primary and I split because I became medically immunocompromised and it was "too much of a sacrifice" for him. Me having boundaries around not seeing him when I was especially vulnerable, if he was doing things that put me at higher risk, was misconstrued as an ultimatum (yeah, I think it's going to shift the dynamic by default...).
Can't see my existing partners right now because I'm pretty sick, and one of them just traveled and puts me at too high of a risk.
We can probably do something masked, but I haven't really been able to get out of bed.
MAN, what a rough fucking transition from taking my health for granted. It feels lonely, and I feel like the odds are stacked against me. This is a vent, but if anyone else shares these woes maybe it could feel good for everyone to share? I'm overall grateful that my health is technically on the mend, but this part does make me pretty sad.
It's probably time to find a support group. Maybe non-monogamous and disabled support groups exist?