I know I have to leave. I’ve been saying it for months.
Any time we’re together it’s fight after fight.
I tell him I want a divorce and he acts like it’s never happened 5 minutes later.
We fight every weekend (work opposite shifts so really only see each other in passing).
I work full time and a part time job, take care of my child, home and the dogs, he works a full time and part time and just comes home and sleeps. This has been an ongoing argument for years of I need help I can’t do it all.
Just recently I’ve become friends with some coworkers, they’ve invited me out for dinner and/or drinks multiple times. Obviously I don’t go every time but the few times I’ve tried to go he’s shown up and dragged me home, or won’t even let me out of the house.
This past weekend I was supposed to go for drinks for a friends birthday, something he knew about all week and was seemingly fine with.
He made plans over it and when I told him it upset me he freaked out and told me to go. I decided I wasn’t going to go out but was going to stay at my parents for the night because the arguing was too much and I couldn’t handle it anymore.
He yelled at me that the car is his and he’d call the cops on me if I took it. I decided to chance it anyways. Walked out, got in the car and he hopped in the passenger seat, took the keys off me.
I feel trapped. I feel like I’m just stuck in this cycle. We fight, he acts like nothing happened. Rinse and repeat.
I can’t take it anymore.
I told him yesterday I mean it and I’m filing for divorce and leaving. 5 minutes later he says “I’m glad we’re both on the same page of working on our marriage. I know we can save it.”
I think I’m losing my mind here.