First week and still going strong, I am halfway from my pb and I don't plan to stop there. The key is to keep your mind occupied and the easiest way to do it is to know what you are going to do during the day, and also have an "emergency plan" for the urges, for a bit of Instagram reels but also some music helps.
Stay Strong!
-j
Not much to say today, I'll make updates every week instead of every day, more convenient too. See ya Sunday.
Stay Strong!
Day 2 done!!
So today I was home alone almost all day, you all know what that usually means, but not today, I didn't even had urges!! I think the key was music.
So all day I had music on, but specifically music that meant something either literally or personally, it really helped to keep my mind occupied and relaxed. If you are struggling you should try that.
Stay Strong
-J
(I want to make this one a bit longer because it is my first interaction here)
It's 12:00 am, I got school tomorrow and here I was... today felt different tho... felt bad and I finally realized all the damage it was giving me, not only emotionally and mentally but also socially.
I few day ago I had an interaction with a girl, it was a 5 minute thing while we waited for something, but it was really interesting, but I didn't do anything, didn't even ask her for her name, why? Because all I did in my head was imagine this sexual future with her, but it was gross because she is really nice, so I really "do I only want a girl to fulfill my lust?" Yeah, and that made me forget the beauty of truly loving someone.
I am 17 and I've never had a girlfriend, and I don't plan to have one anytime soon. Not until I change and I know I won't hurt that person whom I love. Who knows? Maybe I'll have another opportunity with this girl, I just hope I'll be ready by then.
I've been trying to "fight this war" alone, the longest I lasted was less than 2 weeks, after tonight, I know it's not possible, I need somewhere to seek for help and release my insecurities. I'll try to make updates daily.