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I had a wonderful relationship for seven months. I truly couldn’t believe how good it was, and if it was real, I finally thought I met my person. I’ll admit I went through some really hard life moments during this relationship, but my partner was so supportive but towards the end, we had our first real conflict. He completely slowed down our relationship basically pushing me away until it ended. I feel like it was an avoidant discard. I had no idea he was even an avoidant. I worked really hard throughout my life to become more secure, but this break up made my anxious attachment, nervous system horrible. I got no clarity. I asked him clarifying questions and he wouldn’t respond, but I knew he was reading my texts. I had to block him. My nervous system is finally feeling better, but I feel terrible for the things I said, which weren’t even that bad. I know he had his faults, but I can’t stop feeling like he’s only going to think of me as the person I was when we broke up. It’s been a month now and I know he treated me not so good towards the end but it’s just absolutely devastating to have someone be able to completely write you off with no real chance. He got on Tinder right away (a friend sent me a screenshot) and deleted all the pictures of us all his Instagram. Just really sad.