Я хочу уйти из дома и оборвать всё связи как только получу диплом
Hello everyone, my name is Denis (this is a fictional name), I’m 16 years old and I live in Ukraine. Recently, I’ve been seriously thinking about leaving the country.
It’s not like I live badly in terms of money — my guardians provide for me quite well. Yes, I live with relatives, but unfortunately I can’t say more details about my mother and father for the sake of anonymity.
I started catching myself thinking that I need to run away when I began dealing with the most ridiculous complaints. Things like: “Everything in the family seems too calm, let’s start a scandal because you’re not smiling at 5 AM before going to your so-called college,” or: “You said something while doing chores and we didn’t hear you? You never want to work, you only want to complain and play on your computer.”
The last straw happened today when I spilled water in the bathroom and didn’t wipe the floor properly. People started yelling at me. Fine, I understand that part. I started cleaning it up, but then I got hit with another complaint: “Why are you trying to wipe it up so quickly? Are you in a hurry because you’re busy with something?” (It was 10 PM, by the way. I had come home, rested a bit, and went to take a shower.) I answered “No,” and I’m more than sure I said it loudly enough for someone standing 2–3 meters away to hear me. But of course, my “no” somehow turned into a “yes,” which caused yet another argument.
Almost every conflict in my family ends with me being blamed, no matter what actually happened. Even video games, which I barely spend time on because of my studies, become a problem. (I don’t play pirated games, so I can easily check everything through Steam.) Across all the games on my Steam account over the last 4 years, I haven’t even spent 1500 hours in total — but apparently that still doesn’t matter.
The constant arguments in my family and the way I’m constantly put down make me want to leave. Although honestly, I think I already wanted to leave when I was 15, around the time they started controlling my finances. I opened a card account with one of the well-known Ukrainian banks, Monobank. When my guardians found out about it, they were furious, and for almost three weeks nobody in the family spoke to me at all.
The only thing that makes me stay in Ukraine is my attachment to getting my diploma. I’ve almost finished my first year, with three more to go. But sometimes I wonder: is it really worth leaving without saying anything to anyone?