u/ECHOtheTHERIAN1707

Hey yall I cant stop worrying about this. Context this is my first ever jobs and im in the US. AZ uf that helps at all.

So I got hired to work at this mcdonalds, I showed up when I was told to. THEY DIDNT HAVE ME ON THE SCEDULE. Not even for the past two days that I was training. Anyway this whole training process has been so ungodly hectic. It feels more of like a "throw ya in the water and see if you can swim" type scenario. SPOILER ALERT i panic when im in too deep of water. Its so bad I dont think I even want to work here anymore. I keep making mistakes, they tell me to do one thing but then another person tells me no its actually like this and then I look over and someone else is doing the exact thing I was corrected on. Example: I was 1st told to click the thing and it'll print out the order onto a sticker thingy and then put it on the bag and put stuff on said sticker with the order into the bag and yeah. Well someone else corrects me and says dont do that before you have all the stuff already. OKAY so I wait. But now its just click the thing so it appears like we have served it. OKAY. BUT YOU JUST SAID NOT TO DO THAT!! idfk. They didnt really have a trainer whose only job was to train me. Is that normal? It was just (what appeared to be) another crew member who has been there longer than me and who had a job to do that wasn't to train me. So while I was supposed to be trained on I guess everything their I was only trained on how to pack the bags and not even correctly too. I get very anxious and whenever I make even the smallest mistake or im being too needy(?) I guess, my brain decides to think its the end of the world because I messed it up and that person thinks im stupid and cant do anything right and theyll tell their friends and family and theyll tell their friends and so on and so on how stupid I am and how I cant do anything right and then ill die alone and everyone will hate me because of my mistakes. I know thats not reasonable or rational but its how my brain works. So because of that I have a LOT of trouble asking for help when I need it. So no I did not ask to be trained on register until a customer wanted to be rung up and someone helped me (ill be it slightly) figure out the basics of how the register works.

Anyway. I called out today because I was told yesterday that i would be training on the drive thru stuff. Well that would entail me knowing how to use the damn thing right? this sent me spiraling with anxiety because again im not perfect but for some reason my brain thinks I have to be. Im not scheduled to work tomorrow. I wasnt scheduled yesterday or the day before that either. When I called in I did only call in once to no answer but I left a message. For sanitys sake I looked through a pamplet for new hires that I got from orientation and saw that it said to call at least 3 times and leave a message or contact admin. it was an hour before I was scheduled to work. Could I be fired for this? God i hope not. Theyre a 24 hour store so theyre busy but idk.

So basically the whole reason I am weighting this is because they told me yesterday that ill be in the back working with the person who works at the first drive thru window(yk the one where you pay) and my rainnwent into panic mode istfg. I was so stressed and anxious and worried about making a mistake that I just called out sick. But now idk if I need to get into contact with my supervisor or who because im not scheduled anywhere. Its like they hired me and then completely forgot about me. And also I did find a app for IPad that is basically the cash register so that calmed me quite a bit but now I have a new problem of weather i show up tomorrow and get trained on cashier or what.

Idk if this is worth throwing my mental health in the trash for. Idk if this is a good fit for me. I dont even know if I wanna keep working here, or I guess even start there. Sorry for the rant. Any advice/help would be appreciated. Sorry for all the wrighting i just cant stop worrying about if I did something wrong or about doing something wrong.