So I’ve done my 4th step. Not terribly long but pretty thorough. I am just looking for experience, strength and hope like the title says regarding how to go about this with my sponsor (as the title says).
The 4th step is about resentments and fears, however as I understand, the 5th step is about deepest darkest secret also - some of which I have shared with my sponsor to good results (he’s an amazing man, no homo).
How do those relate and how can I get past mental blockage when I sit down with him for a couple hours? I have so much baggage and I can barely remember any of it (much recovered so far, but still sick for sure). Yes, the fourth step did help churn some of that up but I still haven’t cried or anything yet. I need to cry. But that’s beside the point. I’ve been abusive and belligerent and not all of it is represented in my 4th step save I do a 4th step on myself (which my sponsor is expecting me to do, and I will do). But I feel like even then, there will be something missing.
Sorry for the rant — all experience, strength and hope pertaining to the 4th step is welcome.
Much love,