u/Dusty_Rose23

So I got sick on Friday and am hacking lungs full of mucus more and more over time to the point of having bad headaches and sore throats over it. I also can’t breathe well. It started with achy muscles and a slight fever and really fatigued and less appetite and those have gotten better. I’m still a bit tired and my appetite isn’t back but my lungs had gotten worse so I went to the dr today. WE GOT 3 MEDS.

I got prednisone, some antibiotics, nasal spray and I’m still supposed to use my Ventolin inhaler as needed.
I need to live like this for the next 5 days.

I really hope this helps because I feel like shit and I have things I really want and need to do—

Anyways… the point of this was just to rant and any tips or stories on asthma and being sick. I hate life and my lungs right now.

So I’ve been diagnosed with severe BPD since I was 14. I’ve done a major DBT program for youth for 5 years continuously from 14-19 years old. It’s helped a bit but not a lot and when I say it hasn’t been helpful people just try to get me to do more of it or say I’m not trying or else it would help. Is there any way to make it stick more? I found the manual for those with learning issues that they often use in forensics helps phrase it better and stick more but I’m lost. I frequently attempt suicide and am very lucky my body isn’t damaged with how severe some of them were. My longest without an attempt was 5 months since I was 14 so for 8 years and that’s only been in the last year-year and a half.

Also are there any other therapy modalities you know of that can be helpful. I mainly struggle with the emotional regulation , crisis management, and mindfulness bits although I sometimes struggle with interpersonal stuff but it’s more making friends stuff and likely related to my autism. I also deal with trauma, psychosis, and mood episodes that go outside BPD but currently don’t have a diagnosis attached. Art and animal therapy was very helpful and helped me feel seen and heard and comfortable to be honest. Most DBT therapist were very direct and acted like I wasn’t thing and I was being manipulative and such when I wasn’t. I’m not sure what to do because I want to get better. I want this to stop. I want to enjoy life and be happy and feel ok and be as normal and regulated as possible. But it won’t stick. It doesn’t make sense to me. I’m looking into social rhythm therapy that they use for bipolar, CBT, and narrative therapy although that last one is hard to do alone and I can’t find a therapist right now. Maybe ACT. I’ve tried so hard and I’m so frustrated because while I’ve improved over time my BPD is still severe and I still feel so stuck.

Does anyone have any ideas or recommendations or persona stories that would be helpful. Please, I don’t know what to do.