First time post for me. I cut ties with my egg donor in my early 20s after years of physical when I was a child, and emotional abuse leading into adulthood. I’ve been going to therapy for almost 3 years and recently had to flip providers due to insurance- and this new one is focusing on trauma therapy. I’ve been diagnosed with CPTSD and Panic Disorder.
Anyways, among the awful things shes done to me, as the heading suggests, did your parents ever make you fight other kids for their amusement and own rage projection? I remember a specific situation where I was to fight two older kids because they gave her a ”nasty look”. Ive always been terrified of confrontations and of course I never wanted to but it was either get my ass beat by them or deal with her. I told my therapist about this and she seemed very alarmed I went through that. I don’t like talking about as it triggers my anxiety but I get it’s the process of healing and stuff.
Sigh. Anyone else relate or been through this? How has your healing journey been?