I'm defecting, I'm done.
Hello everyone I wanted to say that yeah basically I'm done with being Jewish all together the good thing is my last name is not purely Jewish and non Jews also possess it.
But generally I just can't stand having to watch my back 24/7 like no matter where I go, no where is safe to be a Jew is something I learned again and again while being in university studying philosophy/sociology etc. I'm also not making aliyah I don't want to die for any military of any country at all, and as well despite being safer for Jews there, not always like this is the weird thing you can be just relaxing in your apartment that you work like a slave to afford only to then be randomly hit by a rocket or as well you go to a place to hangout again for some crazy thing to happen to you wether it's an explosion, stabbing, whatever.
And as well many ethnicities nowadays especially in the west are much more symbolic than how they used to run secularization and atheism killed everything it meant to be a human in a pre industrial society.
Like I just can't stand it, I'm too depressed, to broke.
Every single day is just trying to keep status, strive for more status or whatever I'm done. I'm gone, idk what I'm going to do (I live in the U.S. btw) everyone in this country is some sociopath.