Being allowed to fail socially
My entire life starting in childhood I struggled to make friends and then struggled to keep them, and this is still a pattern I'm trying to break to this day. And it's entirely my fault every single time, because I myself am a neglectful person. I am not a good person to befriend, period.
And I just realized my entire life I was told "it's just a phase" but guess what? No it wasn't. I'm halfway through my twenties now and I just pushed away yet another potential friendship and I'm fucking mad.
I remember teachers talking to me to discuss this, maybe they wanted to take a better look at me but this never went anywhere. I can only assume they went to my parents and got promptly dismissed about it. There was this one episode where these two kids approached me and in hindsight I believe they were asked to by the staff, but. Again. I am not a good person to be friends with. Womp wooooomp.
Even if I did manage to maintain a bond it wouldn't matter, because I moved a lot anyway and it's not like my disfuntional little teenage brain would have gone the extra mile to keep it. Especially not without guidance but lol. Lmao, even.
If anything they liked having a little cave gremlin because I couldn't cause trouble or go out to parties or god forbid date someone. I was just holed up all day and they could trust me never to do anything that might require a little more brainpower to handle.