I am ugly and I feel like I'm also unbearable to be around. And that is DEFINITELY not a good combo. I could go on for hours about everything I hate about myself. I was lying in bed last night, doing an assignment from my therapist to think of three things I like about my body, and three things I like about my personality. I managed to get two things. 1: I have all my limbs. 2: I'm not missing any vital parts of my body. Yes, that's it. I sat in bed for at least 2 hours, and couldn't think of anything. I'm not suicidal, and I don't want to die. But I am just such a lame person and am really, really ugly. People will say, everyone is beautiful, and you should be greatful for being alive. I look like I'm pregnant with how large my stomach is, my skin is full of acne and scars, I have a lot of body hair, I'm short, my hair is a dry, greasy, frizzy mess. And for my personality? It's horrible. I'm not a mean person, and I never want to hurt anyone. I'm socially awkward, cringey, loud, annoying, basically all the personality traits you don't want to be. I'm always being told to be quiet, and people always talk about me behind my back. I have friends, but I feel like they really don't like me, and I know that I'm no one's first choice. I don't like anything about myself and I don't know what to do. Sorry that this is really long, I just don't want to burden and embarass myself to my friends.
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I (18M) have abnormally old parents for my age. My mom is 64 and my dad is 69. Both of them are luckily in really good health. Neither of them smoke, drink, etc. No one else I know has this issue, and most of my friend's grandparents are the same age as my parents. I have already come to terms with the fact that they're not going to live long enough to see me have a family, and that just makes me sad. I've talked to a therapist and them about it, and both of them just said the same thing: 'everyone dies someday, enjoy the time you have with them.' And that just doesn't help me one bit. I struggle to enjoy my time with them knowing this. If anyone has ANY advice besides talking to them about, I would literally appreciate it so much.
Edit: Wow, I didn't expect such thoughtful replies, It makes me feel a lot better knowing others have gone through something similar. I saw a lot of you talking about parents who have passed away, and I just want to say I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you guys a lot : )