u/Dull-Flamingo9629

For context, I was abused by my dad from younger than I can remember until I was a teenager and they divorced. I’m in therapy and I’m trying to work through it all. But ever since I’ve started unpacking it all for the first time, I can’t feel anything down there. At all. This isn’t really something I want to ask my therapist about. But I’m struggling immensely. I want to provide sex for my partner, but I can’t do it without throwing up or blacking out. And now I can’t even feel anything even if I want to. It’s just what I’m “supposed to feel” I guess and my body just operates without me behind the wheel. I just feel numb. Is this normal? Has anyone else been like this?