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There’s the one used on the Singles soundtrack with Dave A on the drums and there’s the “demo” that was released on the 2009 version of Ten.

I like the rawer sound and the guitar tone of the 2009 version but the speed and Abbruzzese on drums on the Singles one draws is also amazing. Personally I think they’re both great and one of the few songs I can think of that have multiple versions where I don‘t have a definite favorite. It’s easily one of my favorite PJ songs.

I feel bad posting this here, because I know OCD is very serious and puts people in a lot worse situations than I’m in, but I just needed somewhere to post something.

I’m 17 and have always been straight. Two months ago though I started experiencing those doubts and stuff that are associated with HOCD. Around the same time afterwards i also quit watching p*rn and for a while was just feeling really down and nervous cause I wasn’t getting that constant dopamine. I was always engaging with those thoughts and trying to deny them and getting reassurance and such. After some research I figured out what I was doing was wrong and have been just trying my best to ignore those thoughts.

I still though am just feeling anxious and nervous about those thoughts. Some of those thoughts also not just about what if you like guys but also what if you don’t like girls. I feel like I’m managing myself better but I feel like some days are worse than others. My brain is constantly thinking about it even if I’m ignoring them. I’ve never had a girlfriend so these thoughts are stressing me out about this.

I just feel horrible all day like nothings getting better. I’m just wondering when do things get better? I just want my old life back, where I didn’t constantly have these thoughts and where I could just live normally where I knew I was attracted to women 100% and not have to worry about anything.

In the album version, he sort of mumbles “fuck it up” but in the music video he says something different. I can’t figure it out for my life and I’ve watched that video probably hundreds of times.