Sort of a weird rant, but I just need to vent.
Lately I’ve been feeling like a lot of my interactions with men are driven more by lust than genuine interest. Maybe it’s just my personal experience, but it’s hard not to notice a pattern - it often feels like some guys are on their “best behavior” at first, almost like a trial period, and I’m left wondering if they actually want to know me as a person or if they just have other intentions.
It’s gotten to the point where I’ve started losing faith in the idea of finding something real. And this might sound harsh, but I don’t think a lot of the men I’ve met would treat me the same way if I didn’t look the way I do. That realization took time, and it’s been pretty disheartening.
I guess what I’ve learned is that being lusted after isn’t flattering - it’s actually one of the emptiest forms of attention.