Did you choose to see your baby again after the hospital?
My baby boy was stillborn at 38 weeks almost 3 weeks ago. He was sent several hours away for the autopsy and has returned yesterday, now with the funeral home.
We have been offered several options from the funeral coordinator including spending time with him again at the funeral home, or even having him returned to us for the night before the service with a cuddle cot on loan from the hospital.
We already spent a little over 24 hours with him at the hospital, and sort of said our goodbyes then. I wasn’t expecting the opportunity again. Now I am conflicted. On one hand I want so badly to hold and spend time with him again, I also feel he deserves a cuddle after being alone the last few weeks. On the other hand it feels like reopening a lot of pain and grief I have already started to process. I am also unsure if I want to see him further deteriorated. He was so perfect when we spent time with him at the hospital.
Has anyone been in a similar situation? What did you choose to do?