I feel the urge to break all my emotional bonds PS. I’m married
TLDR: I want to be alone. Not suicidal/cheating/hiding. I just want to be alone in life with no responsibilities outside of work.
I’m an early 20s male married for 2 years and in the same relationship for 6 years. Over the last few months i feel not as if I’m growing apart from my spouse but that I want to lose connections or tie downs in my life. And with that I feel the urge to divorce and cut all contact to people in my life that isn’t related to my career. Including my wife, parents, friends any one that I don’t need in order to go to work as I don’t want to die or be homeless and without money. And before someone thinks that I say that because I’m cheating or thinking of cheating (although I doubt anyone will read this). I simply want to be able to go thru life only thinking of going to work eating and maybe working on my physical health. Almost like a nomad scenario but I don’t want to leave the state I’m in only to feel alone in a sense. I’m terrible and writing and I’m sure it make little to no sense to anyone but me. Idk what else to say. I simply want to be alone. Thank you to anyone that may have read or cared.