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I’m really struggling. I wear the hijab but the last few months have been really getting to me. Every time I wear the hijab or the abaya I just get so annoyed. Like every time I put on her job I look like a freaking moon. My face looks so round and then every time I wear the abaya It’s like a constant struggle to even just use the bathroom or having to make wudu in public. It’s exhausting. I’m so over it. I can’t even just sit in chairs like how you normally would. It’s like if I slide then the fabric slides with it and it’s like the most uncomfortable feeling or how like every time I sit on a chair and I want to go to push my chair in but I always get stuck and so I end up doing like the most awkward standing and sitting. I know the hijab isn’t for me it’s for Allah and I’m not going to take it off inshallah but it’s just so hard. I don’t wear makeup or show like any hair w my hijab or even my neck or things that would normally make it prettier. I feel so ugly.
I recently got married and I put on a few pounds and it’s definitely showing. But I can’t seem to bring it down. I’m just rly struggling.