Doesitgetsbetter
Hellooo. I don’t know why I keep coming here to write, but here I am again.
I wake up from nightmares with my heart racing and full of anxiety. Throughout the whole day, my hands and body keep shaking. I know I have anxiety, and honestly, I think I might be dealing with depression too.
At night, I can’t sleep. There’s this voice in my head telling me, “Just let yourself bleed once.” Sometimes I end up hurting myself just to ease the pain for a moment.
Every time I look at myself, I feel ashamed. I’ve tried reaching out to my family so many times, but they just tell me I’m being dramatic.
What am I supposed to do when the ache never really goes away? Every morning, I wake up wishing I hadn’t. Sometimes I shut myself away just to stop feeling everything.
And every single day, that voice keeps telling me how pathetic I am.
I’m tired. I just want to know if anyone else has felt this way and if it ever gets better.