Feeling stuck
So basically I recently talked to my parents about thoughts of getting gender affirming care…on Monday night they told me I’m selfish for wanting gender affirming care and being trans because I didn’t think about their feelings and reputation. On Tuesday…my parents told me I CAN receive gender affirming care, just that I should wait longer because I “haven’t experienced anything” and “have not dated anyone.”
I am so sick of my parents thinking I am transitioning for the sake of dating. I am not. It doesn’t work like that. But that’s off topic. On to the main point, I recently finished the public exams which determines which university I go to, and I thought of lining up for HRT and surgery when I turn 18 (we usually have to line up for 1-4 years which would be the duration of uni) but since my parents told me I have to move out to do that in order to not further put the family’s relationship and reputation in shambles, I would have to be financially independent. My teachers told me the simple solution would be delaying the plan for gender affirming care, and I get where they’re coming from but with everything that’s going on, I feel like I’m being confined in a box and I’m stuck and I’m freaking out and I don’t know what to do. Especially since the results of the exam wouldn’t be out until July and I can’t really become a tutorial teacher just yet. I just…don’t know what to do. And my English teacher told me I have way more potential than working at McDonald’s.