I'm aegosexual but curious about dating and other people's experiences
Hey I'm 27F, I have always been single. I have been asked out and I had crushes in the past. The thing about crushes, I like people as long as they do not talk to me or give me any attention. I enjoy watching them from far away, seeing their interaction with other people etc. But when they start talking to me the image I have of them in my mind is shuttered and my admiration disappears. I realized that a long time ago and since then I have never interacted with anyone when I like them.
About aegosexualism I did a lot of researches to put myself in a certain group and a few years ago I discovered it, I realised I liked the content of sex since high school but when someone touches me or tries to talk dirty to me I feel disgusted. I like the idea of sex as long as I'm not part of it. After looking at the community and seeing everyone else's kinks. I can also confirm that I'm one of you as well in terms of kinks too lol.
I've always been satisfied with just me without having a partner but lately I am seeking someone that I can talk other than my friends. I want to have a platonic relationship with someone it seems. What I mean by platonic relationship is that we don't have to have any passion for each other as long as we can communicate and speak without disrespecting each other. Becoming that special someone for someone else.
It might seem like a friendship from first glance but I'm not looking for friends, I want to be special for someone same for them. I don't know if I could explain myself but I was curious if anybody here is experiencing or experienced similar feelings and how did it end for them? Or am I just crazy and looking for attention lol? Let me know...