Should I (M30) give up on making it work with my ex (F29)
This is my first time posting about something like this so please be patient with me. When I was 9 I met the love of my life nobody believes me not even her but I knew one day I would be with her. Fast forward to when Im about 25 i have a daughter a good paying job my own house and im living the single dad life that's when I reconnect with her we had kept in touch here and there through the years but this time we actually decided to try things out now before this i never knew she had feelings for me she always told me I was a friend/brother etc so it took me by surprise she was willing to give me a chance but we last 3 years had our own daughter so we had a family of 6 including her 2 children from her last marriage we had a lot of problems that didnt start out at first my family absolutely hated her no matter what me or her did to try to change that and she took it really hard because my parents take it out on our daughter also we both have different types of anger issues mine I go 0-100 almost instantly I could be calm cool and collected one moment and a screaming psychopath the next I know it's not acceptable and it drives people away hers she stays mad and says things she doesn't mean which kept us at odds alot towards the end then I fucked it all the way up by secretly smoking Marijuana for 6 months so we broke up and we swore we would work on each other and come back to each other but about a month after we break up she started a fling with her coworker I ended up losing my job and she had me move back in so we could help each other but she was hiding it from me until she finally admitted it she told me she was tired of waiting for me to change and things escalated and she didnt mean for it to happen but it did now i guess they are talking and I've had to sit here and watch all of it and I've told her I still love her and that this hard for me so today we had a talk and she says she still loves me and would do whatever she had to do if it meant I change for good and get our family back together even if that means cutting things off with this dude completely I want her back more then anything but idk if I can trust this is what she wants it feels like real life twilight she tells me she loves me but that she loves this guy too and then one day she seems like she wants to try things and then the next ignores me all day and gets mad whenever I try to talk to her I just dont know if shes telling me what I want to hear or if she really means it any advice would help