Sometimes I wonder about if there were 3
I’m (31f) have been married to my partner (28m) for almost 2 years. We have a pretty good marriage, we have worked on our sex life and have 2 beautiful children that we both adore. But I still want to be in a throuple. (M/f/f)
In my last relationship, I brought the idea up and he was very hurt by me asking to bring in a women to our already 3 year relationship. He asked me if he wasn’t enough for me. I told him he was and never brought it up again.
Then after we broke up I actually had a couple threesomes (sex only) and I really enjoyed it but I wanted a family and I couldn’t see how a throuple could work as a family. So I kinda gave up on that dream and committed to monogamy and finding a partner that loved me and wanted a family too.
And I found that! …. But I still think about it a lot and worse is I think about it with the only woman I had romantic feelings for. (And no I’m not a lesbian that’s in a hetero relationship just wanting both). I love the idea of him falling in love with her and I dream of them meeting and I get to watch them instancely click. And of a life where we share everything and have more love than we could ever imagine. (I am such a dreamer!)
But maybe it’s just a fantasy and I should just focus on the decision I made when I got into another monogamous relationship.