How do you stay motivated without proof it gets better ?
How do you stay on track?
How do you keep going when you know you have no motivation, but you also know you have to quit?
Daily pleasures don’t taste like anything anymore, and I know the reason is this damn thing. I managed 30 days clean recently but I relapsed, because I had no physical or mental proof of feeling alive again — using still gave me more life than real life did.
I know it takes time, but how do you hold onto motivation when you have no evidence in your daily life that anything is changing, or that the change you’re looking for is actually coming? I mean real feelings coming back into ordinary things. I know I have to stop. Part of me knows it. But the part of me that uses has no proof that quitting will change anything, so I fall back in.
One thing that’s been helping lately is coherent breathing — 3 sessions of 5 minutes a day. It helps me take a step back, not get swept up in cravings right away, and brings my baseline anxiety down.
If you have any advice, I’ll take it. I’m 22.
Have a good evening.