Can I even have a sex life with all of this?
Could I have a sex life? I've been trying to become sexually active, but I run into so many road blocks that I wonder if it's even possible for me. I live in a small town to start off, (I can't move.) Apps like Grindr both scare and piss me off. I don’t feel all that comfortable with meeting people for sex I've never met in real life and I hate all of the fake profiles, they are the only ones that seem to message me. The rare times I go to a gay bar or any gay themed place in the city there is another problem. It is illegal to have sex with someone in more private places of the business (bathrooms or cruising places for example). Sex parties are another difficult situation as I'm an outsider and on a personal note, I don't have any friends to share any information like that with me and I don't know how to make any. On another personal note there's another problem that maybe I'm just ugly, I'm overweight and the gay community; I've noticed is remarkably shallow. I've been trying to lose weight in the hopes that it will improve my chances and appearance. I'm never looked at in a lustful way by anyone, or not by anyone that I know of. I don’t see how I can have a sex life. And finally I take my sexual health seriously I require condoms (a deal breaker,) since I refuse to be one of those irresponsible people that don't think STI's and STD's are no big deal. I don’t see how I can have a sex life with.