Jealous of support system
It feels like all my friends have support systems and I'm STRUGGLING. We have none. It's my husband and I for everything. My in-laws are not safe people to leave my kids with unsupervised. My parents are older and not healthy enough to be supportive. I have a sister who would help if I was desperate, but only for an emergency.
I'm struggling knowing my kids will not grow up with any sort of caregivers outside of my husband and I. There will be teachers and such, but never aunts/uncles/grandparents/etc. no visits to grandparents, no hanging with cousins, nothing. Both sets of grandparents are somewhat involved occasionally (only when it's convenient for them/relationship comes with strings/etc.). We are somewhat new to our area and plan to be involved with church, so we hope to eventually find a trusted, reliable babysitter to use occasionally?
Will my kids be okay? Will my marriage be okay? I love, love, love my children but I struggle seeing other parents who get to take a trip with just their spouse, have a dinner alone, etc. A break would be such a dream.
I'm getting somewhat resentful when my friends talk about their parents helping, and I know that's not good for my relationships. I can't be frustrated at my friends for having something that I wish I had.