26F. I’ve been body shamed pretty much my whole life family, relatives, school, even my own mother. I was always the “chubby” kid, and by 15 people were saying I looked “married” because of my weight, which really messed with how I saw myself.
By 17–18, it got so overwhelming that I basically starved myself for a month and lost around 10 kg. I am 5'0 and i reached 50 kg, and for the first time, I got compliments and felt “accepted.” But mentally, nothing really changed. The damage kind of stayed.
Now I’m around 55–58 kg, and I know I carry myself better, but even a small comment like “you look a bit chubby” completely ruins me. It genuinely messes with my head, and I feel like I don’t even have a clear idea of what my body actually looks like anymore.
Has anyone else dealt with this? How do you cope with these thoughts when they’ve been there for so long?