EDIT: I realized it said myself relationship and not my relationship
I’ve worked so hard to get better, I even left my ex back then to finally heal because of how dismissive, emotionally abusive, and manipulating he was. I was so attached to him and I swore to myself I’d never get back with him and like an idiot I did.
After five years, he messaged me promising me things I’ve dreamed of only to have it all be a lie. Am I the bad person? Am I the fool for falling in love again? We argue everyday, I split so much again after years of trying to heal, and he’s always saying two different things and contradicting his words.
I miss when I dated his brother. I used to date his brother when my relationship with my now current boyfriend was rocky. Yet I cut it off because of my stupidity and how I was so infatuated with what my boyfriend said and his words.
His brother was the best thing that has ever happened to me and I miss him. He’s never yelled at me, he’s always such a gentle guy when he approaches conversations. I miss the words he’d tell me, how he used to tell me he loved me. Sure we were 16 to 17 back then and we’re now 22-23 but still. I know I’m a fool but I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to be alone. I’m missing what we had but I don’t want to ruin his life with my own problems, let alone start more with his brother.