u/Dry-Consequence-8084

It started with Qualludes in the late seventy's, switched to Valium when the Ludes ran out. V's got really cheap for a few years in the mid-80s. I was up to 1500-2500 mg per week, including copious amounts of alcohol. I still worked 10+ hours per day. Slept 10 hours per week and was full of adrenaline and testosterone. By 1998, I decided to stop everything. 5 years later, I got rear-ended, and it messed me up. Opiates have no effect on me, rather the opposite effect. It spikes the adrenaline, and it feels like I drank 12 pots of coffee. They can't use it for surgery or anything else. I have extreme migraines most of the time and sleep very little. I have had several TBIs. Valium helps. I've been taking 40mg daily since 2003. I've stopped for a month or so a few times, but nothing changes. I take other stuff, but I think I've said enough. I'm getting old faster than I expected, I don't know how to make things different. It's not just the V's it's the me. Any suggestions? Terminal pain. The adrenaline and testosterone just don't flow constantly anymore. I don't like it.

I used to carry everything imaginable in my truck, I'm getting older and I ain't that guy anymore what would a normal person have to bring in his truck these days when it comes to enough to tools to get it going?